RJ--we cannot--

Kit had never thought of herself as a person who could be plagued with visions. Yet the waterfalls continued pouring through the computer screen, spilling invisibly dry water over the keyboard and onto the polished wood floor of her office, darkening the edges of the persian rug.

She refused to turn on the television in Richard's and her bedroom. Yet whenever she crossed Sophie or Amy watching television she glanced at the screen. The water roared out at her, engulfing the living room in torrents, washing over the grey green couches, the dark blue carpet. Still, nothing was touched. Nothing was wet. Nothing was out of place at all.

Obviously, this was a illusion. Kit knew what was real: her briefs, her motions. Concentrate on what you can do, she told herself sternly. And at the law firm, she concentrated on the intricacies of appellate court decisions and interpretations from the 10th Circuit Court of Appeals decisions on instream flow rights and surface to ground water interactions legally recognized in Colorado.

Kit could no longer read her computer screen through the falling water. She printed out every piece of e-mail. If she had to respond with an e-mail, she typed with her eyes closed, her fingers instinctively hitting the keys as she thought, just as her voice sounded the words as she spoke without thinking of each muscle, each key. She sent each e-mail through Molly, the secretary, to read through for errors and send to the correct party.

At home, she concentrated on the logistics of getting volunteers to man the 1-800 lines 24 hours a day for any kind of lead, pass out fliers, mail fliers to other states, coordinate with other missing children's actions.

Actively ignoring the waterfalls was the only thing to do. Questioning the waterfalls' existence--or reason for existence--was out of the question. And so Kit carried on.

the illusion / of the depths / our rivers / carry / prevents us / from seeing / the truth

if there are / other waters / we can not / know them / all we see / in rivers / is their presence